"一朝被蛇咬,十年怕草繩"
那十年來第一次在家裡看到螞蟻時,
心裡微微的不愉快,
十年前有發生過什麼事嗎?
不合邏輯的因果關係嗎?
不過今天在家裡大肆屠殺螞蟻,
因而想到螞蟻從來沒在室內出現過,
而聯想到這句話.
大腦的聯想也是沒有邏輯的吧.
小時後在台灣的時候,
有一種身長比普通小螞蟻短1/3的棕紅色的螞蟻.
這種螞蟻並不像火紅蟻一般的具威脅性,
可是牠們一旦被捏死(也有可能包括自然死),
牠們的屍體會散發出令人作噁的味道.
我曾經想過,
不知牠們這種生物構造是為了對同類的警告,
還是把較牠們大的動物臭到要刻意的防止自己不小心捏死牠們,
或者是兩者都有.
弄到最後, 看到這些螞蟻,
都不想用手殺.
一想到五月底就要再次的面對這一類的小東西,
一股寒意延著背椎往上直衝腦後.
如果一直待在台灣,
就得不斷面對這些小事,
而且這些還是小事阿,
大事連想都還沒開始想.
真是個討人厭的問題.
ps. 第一百五十篇, 我居然在寫螞蟻,
不知那些被我砍死的螞蟻是否會覺得牠們死得有代價
Parents are arriving tomorrow morning,
and my plan for my house's "suit up!!", like a fully blown up balloon being poked by a needle, is now nearly flying out of my grasp.
I have a bad tendency of cramming anything that i can cram.
Over the flow of time, it might have proven my ability to perform,
but it certainly did not help me build any charactor, nor demonstrate any legendary job well done.
Fortunately, I used to have a way of pushing myself for an all out bet to accomplish anything that was required before the deadline crawl quietly up my neck.
And that secret weapon is vow, or in layman's term "a promise" or in even lamer layman's term "keeping the words".
( yes, i constantly pronouce layman with lame-man for my own entertainment.
God help me that I think geek's jargons are cool.)
I believe keeping the promise make oneself the man(or woman if one's female) he is.
So, in the past, whatever needs to be completed,
I just sweared it, and hope I'm the man that I am.
(although recently I have discover by accident that "the man" is actually privately recognized as Ran now but that's another story)
Anyways, I wouldn't dare say that I had a perfect record,
but I would say in the past i pretty much get an A for my last minute all out effort.
( cacluated by 1 - the frequency of occurence of me backing out of my words in my own life under my own estimate )
Now, I'm ashame to say that to myself I'm not once the man I thought I was.
(gosh that sounds really bad eh?)
Well, at least by my estimate, I still got a pass so far.
Anyways, for all these mubling.
I just want to say:
"I hope I pass my house-cleaning 100 final tomorrow."
ps. I'm seriously being brain washed by "how I met your mother"
pss. and what's worse is I'm enjoying it~
psss. Note to self: a while ago I wanted myself to review the things I wrote as entries in the past.