今天(昨天, it's passed midnight)
去騎了一趟腳踏車,
跟許久不見的漏氣小橘籃球玩了四十分鐘
(剛剛才取的名字, 還滿順口的).
Highschool 投籃的感覺有回來少許.
手勢變輕了,
而不再是拿著漏氣小橘往籃框,籃板猛砸.
人說運動有益身體健康果然沒騙我,
騎個車,
投個籃,
散下步,
心情舒爽了許多.
自己運動沒想像中的枯燥乏味,
而且不會為了愛面子而嘗試超越自己本身的體能限制.
話說回來, 我現在的體力根本就還完完全全的不行,
這些運動讓我覺得我像個復健病人一般.
我目前的運動量搞不好還比復健病人少呢@@
希望每個週末都可以如此運動,
自己或與朋友 :)
有點欲罷不能,
等頭髮乾的時間去玩個撞球吧.
(或許該找一天把握爸媽的高爾夫球杆拖出去玩)
reminder to add to TODO list, or do it soon before next week report.
write email to volunteer co-ordinator and start volunteering again.
This is probably the main reason i resent my mom's nagging,
but feel shameful when my dad points out my mistakes.
同樣的話, 類似的心意,
由不同的人說出來感覺就不一樣.
在記憶中,
很小時候似乎很少見到父母親,
或許是因為出生的時候應該是他們事業最忙的時候吧.
小時後最常見到的還是我哥吧,
老是跟在他後面到處跑.
不過大我三歲的他,
課業永遠比我忙,
玩耍的時間永遠比我少.
我上幼稚園, 他上小學,
我上小學, 他上國中.
我去考國中入學考試,
他靠高中聯考.
印象中自己8歲前自己玩耍的時間還真不少阿.
幼稚園中班的時候拿到了本很簡單給小孩玩的加減法的本子,
注音符號都還不會就開始學數字,
加法是自然而然的學會的,
減法呢? 單純的因為想要把那本本子玩完而去學.
小五的是候, 被我爸每天拖去算代數運用題.
使用未知數 x 的觀念, 大概跟我爸吵了好幾天吧.
我爸說服我用代數前, 還得不用代數的去解那些問題,
以說服我兩種方法的"解"是相同的,
仔細想想當時真是苦了他.
可是學會代數後,
那成就感卻無法抹滅的到現在都還感受的到.
到國一的時候, 算數比別人強,
理論邏輯就相差無幾了.
在台灣的時候,
數學永遠比人強,
中文永遠是平平.
每解一題數學,
就似乎回答了一點點宇宙的秘密.
(後來發現物理, 化學才是,
數學只是解問題的工具)
中文卻是 別人說什麼, 你便記什麼,
絲毫沒有道理可言.
(背解釋, 背單字, 背詞彙, 背詩詞)
過一升國二的時候, 搬來了溫哥華.
父親不在, 我哥便成為了我新一代的問題回答機.
印象中, 我卡在程式(function)的觀念上卡了許久.
我哥從他台灣國中導師所學來的販賣機比喻更本就難懂的要死,
記得他跟我爸為了解釋給我聽, 好像被我逼出了另一種比喻.
可惜上了大學以後, 就愈來愈少人打比方給我聽了.
(不過我到是學到了, 比喻是不可磨滅的神奇教學器材)
或許是因為比同年紀的人早領悟課本上的東西,
我爸媽似乎覺得三個小孩中, 我比較聰明.
漸漸的我哥我姊似乎也這麼覺得,
漸漸的我也這麼覺得.
現在仔細想想,
或許我那時候只是單純的覺得,
提早學那些東西,
縮短我與我哥之間知識的距離,
吵他讀書比較有理由吧.
背別人覺得聰明和自以為是是相當悲哀的.
成績好, 是正常,
成績不好, 是懶惰, 該罵!
覺得什麼樣的知識, 理論, 自己都能吸收,
當無法在自訂的時間內吸收時,
便苦惱的想撞牆.
考試fail, 誰叫你偷懶~
工作還沒找到, 誰叫你偷懶~~
對, 都是惰性作祟,
一直唸就會比較好嗎?
深怕自己變笨了,
與其試著在自訂的時間內把事情做好,
不如不做?
就能永遠逃避自己腦力有無退化的現實?
我現在又何必為自己懶惰找藉口呢?
對於我媽沒完沒了的批評, 很難受阿!
因為日積月累的辜負了她的期望,
對我完全沒信心嗎?
不需要一直對我重複失敗的話會如何阿,
有退路並沒有幫助阿,
只會增加膽怯, 退縮, 與沒衝勁阿.
我終於明白我父母之間的差異,
我爸至少還顯示出他相信我的頭腦夠聰明,
即使他的下一句話是罵我太過於散漫,
也只會讓我覺得我沒有充分使用他跟我媽送給我的金頭腦是很可恥的.
我媽的話, 我只想逃避,
遠遠的逃開她的批評.
在她心目中,
我似乎永遠有唸不完的錯,
無數沒做完的事
在溫哥華的高中與大學的教育中,
漸漸的,
在學習的東西越來越理論化,
做的習題越來越少,
那理解與完成的成就感也漸漸的消失了.
我應該是屬於很不能自我肯定的類型吧.
沒有信仰的我在這方面似乎弱了些,
應該選擇相信什麼嗎?
為了這個理由而相信,
似乎褻瀆了那個信仰.
最近, 心情煩躁,
即使知道自己該做的事情卻不想去做,
因為我覺得我是被逼著做的.
就是這種心態讓我即使花上5,6 個小時在一個無聊的mall也不肯回家,
我是新生代用有兩個叛逆期的新品種人類嗎?
期望有一天, 我不會受到我媽負面的話的影響.
期望有一天, 我父母對我只有安慰, 沒有批判.
以後如果我有小孩,
一定要記得個他/她鼓勵多於批評.
(不知不覺, 我的 entry 變得有點 semi-biography,
已經剪下一大段成長歷史了@@)
Haven't done this in 2 weeks :)
Human are such weird being
(or it could be just me),
they find inspiration in the weirdest places,
and regret in the most unsignificant issues.
I was just reading CAT's entry on unfairness of naturally burned money holder,
and i find myself inspired and willing to fight for jobs.
Then, as i was replying bbs carefully,
trying not to offend anyone,
after a long reply,
i find that the quickest way not to make a big deal out of this
is actually not to post such a lengthly reply.
Replaced it with 3 short lines instead.
I don't know why i feel the way i feel, but i guess it's all good for now.
1. Think the repeated revision of my resume have finally come to an end.
I'll brag about my revised resume with the help of so many especially phoebe
once i find a job with it :)
2. Much of my week 5 and 6 has to do with assisting poan with his photo shoot.
I'm honour to be his assitant, but since the pictures aren't out yet.
Don't have product to justify my time spending at the moment.
3. Saltspring Island trip was a blast,
and eventually leads to my downfall on slacking on most things for almost an week.
You can tell how much of a blast it is since i blame it for my procastination yet I enjoy the trip greatly.
More relative entries coming up.
4. Was late with buses picking up my mom at the airport.
Once again, I over-estimate the efficiency of our lovely public transit.
And I solely blame myself for not realizing
yet the magnitude of the difference between driving a car and taking a bus.
Perhaps 30 min of buffer time for each zone of busing
will aid the wrongful recognition problem
5. Took less than 24 hours over-all to study econ,
if I pass that'll proof econ 102 is easy, so is gateman's exams :)
and if I don't, you guys get to call me dumb-ass till my new graduation date :(
6. Have a lovely chat with my mom about US, Canada finance and interest rate,
also gold value..etc. the night after i took my econ exam.
Guess god does not intend to let me forget about it yet,
which is a bad signal cauz there aren't too many reasons
that i absolutely need to still remember the materials.
7. Have my mom nag me about job and car every single day,
to be exact every 3~6 hours of my awake time.
Not the best experience, nor memory.
8. Due to phoebe's aid and email,
I was under preassure that i need to give my info to ibm ASAP,
and complete half of my online application,
due to i can't quite suqeeze in everything on my cover letter into 1 page.
But, the bright side is that my cover letter will be finish
after the squeezing and grammatic error adjustment.
All these means with tiny modification plus scanned transcript,
i'm ready to send out massive emails.
Hope to send out 50 resumes by end of april. *roll eye*
who would have figure IBM to be my first try?
always planned to start with some unknown company so they can suffer the first try failure@@
9. The car deal.
Well, my mom finally get impatience and wanted to go with the money.
Since now I have a percise goal, perhaps this thing can finally be solved.
10. Guess i need to ride bus till i find a job,
and even then, who's to garantee i have a car @@.
I don't really have the face to go up to my mom and ask for one..
what to do.. hmm..
11. Last thing is, what the heck is wrong with taiwan's bread??
I ate three the day my mom came, next day during the exam,
i suffer 1 hour of tourturing stomache pain during the exam
( actually due to my vast experience in stomache pain,
that pain was not really stomache pain but more intestine pain.).
then i'm absent from the seat of 10 min of exam time.
Although this isn't that much of an impact considering the questions
that i left unanswered i didn't know how to answer them anyways.
The time just prevent me from actually bs some words over them.
12. guess that last one wasn't the last.
So my canadian passport is expiring.
Time to apply for a new one.
Great time to have a fat face right now.
God, was i slim back at grade 12.
and very good looking if i might say so myself...j/k
now i'm just a fat ass, which my mom also nag on.
time to slim down.
/*------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
TODO:
- call icbc and make in person appointment and get the thing over with
- call lexus and get an estimate before i call icbc
- prey my econ final gets a high score so i can grad
- Research more about company and job positions
- Sleep earlier? <-- being forced by my mom, need to wake up early these days
- Make up a plan for my life of what age i should have how much saving.
- need to retrain my arms and legs, losing their power.
- needs to slim down and gain more 體力
- check into BCIT's program about getting certificates <-- right.. my hands are still kinda full
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------*/
Final is done,
waiting for grade and grad.
it's not like i got anything better to do,
might as well start writing part 2
but before i started,
i just want to say,
天氣好熱,
心裡煩躁,
屋裡飄滿了悶的氣味,
我需要新鮮的空氣,
誰來幫我逃脫~~!?
(Just thursday's planned silent hill get away is no longer enough)
話說那天半夜, 晚晚才準備好, 短短睡了幾個小時後...
當Kuki小姐來接人的時候,
起床, 手忙腳亂,
許多東西還沒拿.
托大富翁跟音響的福,
東西多到單趟拿不完 o.O
(回程時到家時, 還是單趟拿不完 O.o )
因為是敝人第二個上車的,
很幸運的成為當年跟探險家(explorer)抗爭了一段時間,
結果落敗改名的導航員(navigator)....
(if you don't get it, i'm not gonna tell you)
接著接史蒂文先生
(在路上, 我從我車子殘骸中所挖出來的太陽眼鏡榮幸的登場,
之後就很悲慘的被我亂塞在車子上 - -"),
然後路過Richmond時接南西小姐.
剛好我們也要往西南方走,
ㄟ, 還真巧阿.
全員到齊後,
沿著steveton接著99公路向Tsawwassen Ferry 出發.
路上猛然發現車上多了三個 GPS's,
幸好整路下來沒有什麼太大的資料衝突.
因為提早出發 + 預先訂票,
再候船地/室(ferry terminal!?, since airplane terminal = 後機室)擁有多餘的時間,
兩位小姐不客氣的就逛起街來,
不知對未買的耳環項鍊是否還有所不捨?_?
候船室地上的島嶼地圖讓人著迷,
同時也讓人困惑不已,
因為沒有方向指標,
也沒有比例尺 (誰畫的地圖阿?).
許久過後, 船(siprit of Vancouver!? forgot the name)終於到來,
上船後, 順利的停好車
(右邊數來第二道,
離船的出口只有一個巴士距離,
距離中間, 也剛好停著一台巴士),
上夾層小歇片刻.
休息期間,
三人將三身橋牌功力全部傳授給唯一不會玩的餘下一人.
(to avoid confrontation and complication, let's avoid name calling)
一個小時(還是半個小時?),
船終於入港,
在車開下船的那一刻,
我們也到達了此程的目的, 鹽泉島.
(we are there, end of story!? No!? Really!? why!?)
btw, where's that 玻璃狗 we been looking for?
待續~~
照片:


島上地圖可不能忘記拿, 不然導航員就..
What the..SPA?

準備完畢! Ready to play, or are we?

now, where oh where is that deck of cards,
we must play that deck on this deck,
and introduce the two decks to one another.

芝麻開門 芝麻開門~~
我跟你之間只有一個巴士距離~~
A song by howie day
(still no idea who he is and what he does).
Liked the song a long time ago ever since i heard it from radio station(s).
Tried remembering the lyric and find it,
but always ended up forgetting.
Thanks to a given piece of paper, and a borrowed pen on Friday.
I find it!!
so,
out of the slacking time i assigned myself during study for final,
i'm taking some time out to share.
I had no idea what the lyric meant,
took some more slacking time to find out through google.
Luckily, google is very efficient.
If you are up for it,
respond with what you think it means before you go and find out.
might be interesting.
personally can't figure out what "do do do do" mean,
but that's kinda pointless anyways.
Lyric
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
do do do do x 4
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
do do do do x 4
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
do do do do x 8
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
do do do do x2
Finally find
You and I collide
do do do do x 2
You finally find
You and I collide
do do do do x 8
走著 走著
慢了下來
努力的 向前方眺望
同時卻 不忍錯過了任何一絲週遭的美景
看看天 看看地
思緒
從那遙遠的目的地
到那深埋的記憶
打開記憶的書本
一頁頁的翻弄
有些鮮豔四射
有些陳舊深遂
想到那些以往同行的人們
現在會在何方
做著何事
想著何人
回頭盼望
不見那熟悉的身影
只盼輕吹過的微風
帶著那久違的味道
I hope i haven't use this title before, don't like repeatitive titles
taking a break from dail-life recording
think the term 陳舊 and 深遂 shouldn't fit together
my chinese has been going backward for a while i guess
wonder what happen to my elementry, junior high, high school friends~
how soon will it be when i do the same thoughts to my university friends?
will i have regrets when i do?
想走好久了, 現在卻有捨不得, 哈
So it's Easter,
when rabit behave like raptiles and hens
and lay unreasonalbe amount of chocolate eggs,
when Jesus died and resurrected.
Seeing on this "holy" day rabits and bunny can switch out of mammal class
( 界, 門, 綱, 目, 科, 屬, 種.
Kingdom, Phylum, Class, Order, Family, Genus, Species.
I remember the chinese ones, but cheated with google for the english ones.
nice review on biology),
I abnormally became Poan's assitant and helped out his shoots on friday.
Before I get carried away with my entry,
let me post a reminder to myself and everyone.
"Never, ever, ever, ask your parents to buy cloth/pants for you when you are fat"
Having your friends calling you fat is one thing,
Having your parents not seeing your "shape",
but call you chubby directly from the "numbers" they hear from you feel kinda suck.
(number as in waist size, weight...etc.)
And this advice works especially when you have sibling lighter than you are.
What's so great about being Poan's camera assitant?
well, before the good points, here are a couple "unexpected" event.
1. I forgot I cut my hair, back of my neck was chilling half the time when we were outdoor.
2. The water make the basketball court extra slippery,
sadly I crashed Poan's camera + flash,
no idea how much damage @@
3. UBC is apparently short of blackboards to play around with
4. During the camera crashing, i crashed my Right knee;
During the basketball playing, i crashed my left knee;
how delightful.
Right Knee pic taken 2 hours before this post:

Funny thing is, the icy-pack actually reduce swelling, and pain.
So it's more or less painless,
but it make them look horrific~~
So there I was,
holding the reflecter thingy on my hand
in the middle of nitobe garden,
swinging like crazy for the flower peddles to fly around.
chill craw up the back of my neck.
Later, ballroom,
still holding the reflecter,
still swinging it like crazy,
but this time for flying hair.
a bit Later, still ballroom,
but now get a chance to hold the flash,
wich in the end was not the brightest idea letting me hold that thing.
Surprisingly swift, these shots here.
much later, basketball court,
crash, pull, fly, impact, touchdown,
no camera to take this, since its was flying.
much much later,
shoot done, playing basketball,
yet another crash, yet another impact.
much much much later,
home, worrying about what to bring.
In the end brought too much, but worth it.
moral of this story is,
don't get suck in by the title,
apparently, only the last paragraph from this has anything to do with it.
So, i was supposed to look for jobs?
back to work then.
自從MUCH Channel 搬到 24 台以後,
逐漸的被北美的POP-Culture影響.
就連聽的音樂也有被白洗(Whitewash)的現象.
好多該做的事情還沒做阿(job, car),
更多想做的事情還沒做(play with programs, ie. php, skype...etc , get software certificates).
跟之前相比,
最近變懶惰了呢.
這樣下去頗為糟糕,
一直利用resume還沒好來當藉口也不是什麼太光明的理由.
雖說大部分的東西都不怕,
對找工作還滿緊張的.
就以人生歷練和邏輯來說,
這些東西在怎麼慘也不會比表白難吧?
表白被拒絕了, 得花很長的時間去尋找跟喜歡上下一個對象, 而且不一定放的下.
找工作被拒絕了, 找下一家就好了.
可是..
未知的恐懼力量還真強大,
就目前來說,
我寧願跑去找女生表白,
也不願去遞履歷表(resume),
至少表百的結果是瞬間的.
(不成理由的爛理由 - -")
反方向思考,
如果表白較為容易.
或許我應該去跟我該跟要遞履歷表(resume)的公司表白,
直接跑去Microsoft跟它說"我愛你"似乎也ok.
如果是跟Bill Gates的話...
嗯...
我想想喔...
......
我愛你的錢$_$
我真的是找理由找過頭了@@
還是乖乖的去找+遞 resume 吧
仔細想想,
這一切跟白洗好像沒什麼關係@@
白洗的成品:
Wake me up when September ends - Green Days
幫 timbits 慶生的 party 還算順利吧?
我可能毀了他所有的驚喜,
可是就以一個平凡親近且具有意義的小聚會來說,
還不錯吧?
為何我心中有那一絲的沉重呢?
一整天以來接了太多通電話?
車子的事情一直搞不定?
家事在同一天做太多?
不知道多久以來第一次在電話上對我媽的要求感到不耐煩,
一直覺得自己已經過了那個叛逆沒大沒小的階段了.
一直夾在在想要如何才能拿到最多錢,
跟我媽卻一直想去修那台車的抉擇中.
壓力太大?
好煩阿, total loss 比撞傷還要煩上百倍.
不是故意不耐煩的, 可是我快要被車子搞瘋了.
I'm losing my attention to this case.
and I'm losing the ability to constantly calling icbc and my parents and tell them what each other think and be the stupid messenger.
I know i crashed the car and all that, and this is all my responsibility,
but couldn't they at least give me some pointer and give the the full situation and options or give me every single questions i'm supposed to ask all at once so things are clear and concise and simple rather than having to go throug these phone call process?
And why couldn't icbc call my house phone before my cell?
what difference is there leaving message on my cell phone and house phone?
7 min of cell phone cost me $2.1 normally, despite right now it's $1.65 only,
but what is with the constantly ask me to hold on the phone?
And what's with the I-have-no-idea-and-I-no-longer-remember survey phonecall that happen in the middle of the party?
who the heck do a survey at 9pm?
Why don't I have any patience for any non-friend phone call yet i still was nice?
身體很累了, 卻忍不住的想上網,
卻不想看任何的網頁
最後淪落到寫 entry
I want to regain my control over my emotion.
I want my patience, confidence back.
I don't want to have a slight sadness hiding behind my face.
"Night-time sharpens; Heightens each sensation.
Darkness, wakes and stirs imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defenses~~.
Slowly~, gently~, night unfurls its splendor.
Grasp it, sense it, tremulous and tender.
turn your face away from the garish light of day turn your thoughts away from cold unfeeling light and listen to the music of the night "
- from Music of The Night from Phatom of the Opera
I'm happy, I know I am,
else I would have freak out over the accident.
I know I am :)
The crash on the Weekend before last week was a shock.
Here's a picture:

I don't quite remember what i did (it's been a while),
but i'll try.
Special thanks to Phoebe or Phiana or Pheana (since her hair now look like diana's )
for driving me around the past two week and help me out.
come to think of it, that's quite a lot of driving. @@
1. Bought light bulbs on monday
2. Grocery shopping, and cooked curry on tuesday
3. Play basketball, and pick up my bro's girlfriend's H2O booster on saturday
4. Went to Church then went to Ikea on sunday
5. Went to Shannie's birthday on monday
6. Went to cut my hair (surprise surprise) on tuesday (today)

7. Printed out my resume again, and got tonz of stuff on it crossed out again.
Oh yeah, and congradulation on passing the road test to pheobe.
Update about MY car:
So far, ICBC claim the car is in total loss condition,
and from the bodyshop's information,
the car is estimate to cost 13,000 to fix.
Nancy's friend suggested my car should worth about 15,000 to 16,000
and should not take any offer that is less.
I still don't get it, why would my dad insisting on having me look at if the option of fixing is still possible??
Why would our car be any better than any of the used car out there after the fixing?
我爸怎麼念舊嗎?
I understand buying used car meaning + taxes and probably pay more,
but i find still considering the option kinda rediculous.
But if the engine isn't damaged, i guess it's still doable.
I guess my father is thinking if the damage is not internal is not a big deal ba.
How can they tell from the picture anyways?
So the question now is,
based on the damage on the picture,
can we predict if the car has internal damage.
From the picture, we can see that:
1. bumper is gone, need replacement... 2500? (bumper include the two light cleaner)
2. right front steel plate need some work... 1500?
3. hood steel plate need some work... 1500?
4. both fog light need to be replaced... 1000?
5. right front directional light and high/low beam light need to be replaced. 1500?
6. the steel bar inside the bumper might need replacement... 1000?
7. the plastic the tow company personal tear away need replacement... 500?
8500? 13000-8500, internal damage of 4500?
likely some part is damaged then?
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TODO:
- just checked the answering machine, icbc called. Guess i'll have to call them back tm.
- buy timbits' gift <-- oh crap, i don't want game purchasing appear on my credit card(especially when it's not for me).. HELP~~
- recycle the liquar bottles
- Aim my solo econ class' final for high 80 so i will actually take the study seriously.
- Research about company and job positions <-- got delay and procrastinate
- Sleep earlier? <-- trying hard
- Try to remember what the heck my parents asked me to do. <-- maters now at the moment
- Make up a plan for my life of what age i should have how much saving.
- need to retrain my arms and legs, losing their power.
- check into BCIT's program about getting certificates <-- right.. my hands are kinda full
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it's been a month since CSSS IT night!? scary~~
In memory of all this car driving and accident and stuff, and the upcoming trip:
Travelling~
真不敢相信,
車子傷得那麼重,
人居然完全沒事
(at least up till now, and hopefully jerry too).
basically what happen is:
I did not do a full stop at the stop sign,
and the car coming from the right side hit my car on the head.
front bumper almost completely ruin
(eventually it did get ruined since the towing guy tear it down),
and i think the guy was speeding.
打電話回台灣,
我媽一個字都沒罵我... ( i really hope she had yelled at me now)
只說我應該要自己學會處理事情,
一個機會去學習(學費也太貴了吧).
聽了聽我的敘述,
說出了她覺得奇怪, 不合常理的事.
叫我要先把那些東西搞清楚.
結果.. 打電話給Nancy (thanks).
結論.. 明天在報claim吧.
writing down what Nancy told me,
just in case i might forget.
1. tow away car
2. make the claim, supply preference autobody shop,
make appointment to make a face to face description.
3. the car will be tow to the autobody shop by itself.
4. calculate the money difference
5. pay which ever method.
6. get my mom's car back.
so.. when does the inspection on vechicle happening?
at the towing lot? at the autobody shop?
I'm a bit lost,
I keep having the feeling that i'm missing something.
oh yeah..
missed
#1. so.. since jerry's picture is digital file,
am i suppose to print them out and bring them to face to face meeting?
anything else?
I honestly beleive I have very poor luck when my back account is near empty or near the border.
車子怎麼修都修不好嗎?
仔細想想,
the car is more than just a car to me.
so much memory with it,
so many crazy trips with it.
will I have a bond with my laptop too,
if i use it continuously for 5 years?