It took me 1.5 hour.
for what?
SCRAPING the FREAKING FRYING PAN..
I know it's a single person's fault,
but this rage that got build over the past 1.5 hour simply cannot be diminished by anger toward one single entity.
Hence I'm not pissed at ALL whom came to my house at December 31, 2005.
After I scrap the pan, and it now look like a freaking mirror.
(I'm not kidding, I can freaking see myself looking at the pan, maybe with a 300 near sight variable)
Since I been trying not to swear, I'll try to control the amount of swearing in this post.
But from this day on, NO FREAKING WAY is anybody ever borrow my cooking untensil.
I'M DEAD SERIOUS ABOUT THIS.
Ok, I lied. I just thought of one freaking way.
1. PAY me CASH deposite of 90 dollars per pan, and 25 dollars per cooking utensil.
2. use the stupid pans and shit..(stuff)
3. wash it till i'm happy with how it/them look.. (ie. like before i lend it/them to ppl)
4. I pay you back the money.
5. else, I throw the stupid pan away, and go buy a new one with that money.
(I'm sure as much as my mom love her pans, if it's constantly being change to new one, she won't mind.)
sounds unfair?
I'm not even charging ppl for the extra garbage fee for all those used up not washed pans and utensils yet,
nor the environmental fix up fee.
well.. then bring your own stuff... (shit... opse got it reversed)
ok.. about those ppl who bring their own stuff...
I'm thankful that you did,
but... have you no caring about your own "stuff"?
Today is January 18..
18 days, and you telling me you can't find 2~3 hours within these 18 days drop by,
clean it up and take the orphans home?
As a slacker, i really have no right to complain about all these.
How about this?
from now on, i'll drag 18 days (maybe longer, since they are still here),
and then do whatever i promised you,
and during these period,
you have absolutely NO RIGHT to complain.
I'm sure that wont' make you happy.
After the 1.5 hours of scrap0ing, and used up 1/4 bottle of viniger, and probably 1/6 of the bottle of scrapping powder.
I have gather all the goodness within me and probably from all the air around the house,
and all the plants, bushes, and trees,
I rinsed out the food left over inside the YOUR pans, green beans one.
(the red bean ones obviously require more than one day of gathering of my and the surrounding's goodness.)
There's one other reason other than my goodness that i did that.
My brother is coming in 5~6 hours,
he got what i consider a pretty good torlerance on messy living environmnet,
but if somehow, someway, he got sick of you guys' left over pans,
and wash them up... even after i told him not to do so,
you know what, shame on you guys.
I don't even want to say anything to you guys anymore after that.
Of course, I don't think anyone can stand the fungus growing beans,
(maybe except me)
so i rinsed them out so you guys have a chance.
If today it's my mom that's coming,
you guys won't have a chance even if i done that.
But do consider this,
what impression is being left for my family from my friend with all these left over mess.
How about: "Mark is a messy person, but his friends are way worse. much much worse. Why is he being friend with these people anyways?"
if that's the impression, why would I ever ever want to let my family know about my friend?
or why would my family ever ever want to know you guys,
and/or help out with whatever things you asked me and I asked them.
How can i justify any money, or labour i spent with LE?
All those being said,
you know what i'm most frustrated and depressed over all these?
where the heck is the respect?
Where's the basic respect toward a friend?
even toward an aquantances?
Ask before borrow,
isn't that common sense?
clean up after yourself,
is that so hard?
If some mess occur because of accident(eg. sofa break in half),
you know of course i won't blame you,
and I'll take the blame from my parents by myself.
but my house is not a free-for-all party house that you just come and go,
and leave every peice of shit everywhere.
I know a couple people did clean up after themselves,
and I'm thankful,
and those people can completely ignore this entry.
But for the rest,
come on, grow up.
Two years ago,
there was "ToTo" that clean up after everyone.
put it in a good way, she took care of everyone,
put it in a bad way, she wipe everyone's shit.
Seeing the way she behave,
back then,
everyone at least reduce whatever they accidentally left behind,
or forgot to clean up to minimum.
But what now?
I heard Phoebe wanted to wash the dishes up that night or the morning after that,
and thank god somebody stopped her.
why do a guest to my home need to be come the victim of being the clean up lady?
same thing goes to me,
since when do i become the slave and the janitor of all these?
You want to know why it gets harder and harder to request using my house as you guys' off-event private gathering?
THIS is why.
And everytime after the hard-mental struggle,
and i finally accept you guys' request,
and you guys surprise me once more,
closer friend means less respect?
please, for everything, ask me before-hand as you would when enter a stranger's house.
perhaps once in a while, i won't feel like having a dog walking around my house,
perhaps once in a while, i wish people who are capable of doing so, take a bag of garbage away with them when they leave.
perhaps once in a while, i actually enjoy offering you guys glass cups, or mugs to be used, and plates and forks.
just because we are close, don't assume you know how my mind works.
Has anyone ever consider where does my hard-ass attitude toward people borrowing stuff from me comes from?
If I can trust people to clean up after themselves, why would I be mean about this?
sigh, you guys got a couple more chances
(the only reason for that is at least nobody came upstairs without permission),
if things continue to be like this,
don't blame me for the decision I might have to make.
And the worst isn't just my parent's house is off-limit,
but my complete and total lost of faith in you guys,
and possibly most of the friends i make in the future reguarding this aspect.
I know I post this on my private blog,
and a lot of people who know about this blog, no longer applies.
(I miss you people)
For those who don't know about this blog, but applies,
I trust the message will passed out soon enough.
People who know about this blog,
you guys can just tell them that i told you these in person.
btw, for those of you that are interested,
the other left over dishes and pans, took me two hours to wash.
and i haven't even wipe the counter, table and stove yet.
and so much for not using my chop-sticks,
seeing that i only got 1 stick left in the dishwasher,
before i wash the dishes.
Had to eat soup noodles with fork, wtf.
This is a long post, if you had the patience and use that patience to bear and read through all these,
I thank you.