好期望禮拜六的到來,
不管事情有做完, 沒做完,
結果如何.
這個禮拜六象徵著變態忙碌, 心情不好的結束.
結果, 到最後,
還是沒有辦法去載我媽.
光是開著自家車繞了自家一圈,
就打滑n次,
差點卡在路上兩次.
所以, 只好等待著我媽坐計程車的到來.
想睡覺,
不過project剛寫出頭緒,
似乎應該繼續寫.
想殺人的心情還是沒變就是了.
PS. 留言不是不回,
而是如果最近回了,
很有可能一半是再罵人.
等待星期六之後吧
現在是怎樣?
projects 寫不順, 也寫不完就算了.
全部在最後一個禮拜due 也算了.
還有一大堆雜七雜八的功課, quiz, 跟 presentation 都在這個裡拜我都認了.
我媽要來, 我沒時間打掃我也認了.
現在還下雪!?
我要怎麼接機??
那不成要我搭公車去接??
背著不負責任的名譽就算了,
難道現在還要背不孝?
現在冰箱空空的,
下雪, 我媽也不能去買菜,
難道要我媽跟著我吃泡麵跟過期一天的雞蛋?
然後白痴SUS,
還有一對莫名其妙的東西,
還想在這個禮拜慶祝.
Mendatory 大頭啦,
我能去就該偷笑了,
那有時間去買什麼機車小禮物.
SUS的Exec就顧著自己高興,
我禮拜四如果去,
禮拜五早上功課交的出來才有鬼.
學生會連一點flexibility都沒有,
什麼東西沒show up都是club rep 的錯.
當初sign up 只是幫 CSSS 一個忙,
每個禮拜幫他們開個會.
看到有Constitution 所寫的 duty 我也認了,
雖然sign up 前問這個position在幹麻?
那個白痴的ex-rep誤導我,
說什麼只有meeting,
只有meeting妳個圈圈叉叉烏龜雞蛋鳥兒飛拉.
那個白痴ex-rep如果再開口要我去跟SUS要錢, 我真的會想砍他.
SUS constitution 也是亂定,
好像給club錢,
club rep 就是他們的奴隸一般,
今天chirstmas party mendatory, 有再 constitution 裡面才有鬼.
有的話我也不驚訝, 愛玩玩到一定要別人陪你們玩, 機車.
白爛到機車,
真想把SUS給燒了.
每次看完書都會有一定程度的怨天尤人.
為什麼主角都到最後,
或者過程中都會有一定程度的重心.
雖然說書應該是用來激勵人們的,
可是,
為什麼都沒有那種,
三心兩意,
什麼事都ok,
如何都無所謂,
什麼都可以犧牲,
所有東西的價值都低微,
這種猶豫不決, 馬馬虎虎的主角呢?
如果有這種書,
應該也難看得要命吧.
在我發現以往所注重的東西
正在一個個的失去它們的價值的同時,
我沒有辦法不注意到那些持之以恆的人們,
沒有辦法不羨慕他麼的恆心跟毅力.
當有一天,
所有的東西都失去了價值的同時,
是否連命都可以賤賣?
還是那些不要命的恐怖組織都是這樣的?
永遠都會有新冒出來喜歡的東西吧,
所追求的確實安定而長遠的一種感覺,
或許這並不是那麼的單純.
....單純的發洩.
(我電腦上的中文閱讀速度似乎比讀書還快)
"知足常樂"是吧?
完完全全同意的一句話,
可是卻隱藏著無限的盲目.
照例說,
知足與野心應該是"並行不悖"的.
有野心拼了命要往上衝的人,
往往無法對周遭的人事物感到知足.
而知足的人,
往往安於現狀,
沒有動勁往跟好的方向移動.
所以一旦適應了對於現狀的安逸,
反而容易妨礙到自我的成長.
不過,
最慘的還是不知足,
又沒野心的人吧.
不開心,
可是又不知道該往哪個方向努力.
如果不知足跟沒野心可以同時存在,
這是否證明了知足跟野心也是可以同時存在的,
而否定了一開始的推理呢?
最近似乎很多人都不太開心
是壓力嗎
自己似乎也被感染了
事情一件件的在拖
歉意不斷的累積
永遠沒有完結的那一天
以前的我是不會那麼在意的
不知不覺中
我也變成了一個平凡人了
為何胸口還有一口對著天地萬物的怨氣
好想要 好想要 某一種被遺忘的感覺
尋不回的東西還是放棄吧
天氣對人還是有那一定的影響的
可是 明明很喜歡霧 不該被影響的
順便換首歌
歌詞 像你
多像你養的盆栽 空等熱情的對待
任你安排 凋零盛開 靈活或痴呆
也像你在處理愛 看著總是有點怪
你自由自在 愛或者不愛 默默安排
你也許只是不願意再給別人傷害
你不是壞 你不愛被人明白
所以從來沒有人真得你疼愛
也沒見過你真情澎湃
啊會不會 愛情對你只是小趣味
會不會 你寧可孤獨死也不悔改
別想用愛試你的能耐 我對不對
愛情對你只是小趣味 我對不對
特別有體會的句子之一
你寧可孤獨死也不悔改
我快要到 寧可孤獨死也不悔改 的境界了吧
I just got a freaky idea while carry my loundary basket down to the washing machine.
But i think anybody who i tried this on will probably kill me and ignore me completely afterward.
So, to not let a good idea go to waste,
I'll write it here.
Instructoins:
1. Get a web cam.
2. Start a intensive conversation a friend who won't murder you for playing tricks on him/her.
(at this step,
hopefully your webcam is facing toward the door of your room,
and hopefully there's a hallway outside your room. )
3. make up an excuse to leave the room,
but somehow forgot to turn off the webcam,
and walk down to one side of the hallway.
4. Here's your creativity kicks in.
From the other side of the hall way, you can have:
a guy dress in black helding a knife dripping with blood walk by,
a scary black hair ghostly thingy walk by (ie. sandy's custome),
or if you want a laugh, you can have the whole gay parade walk by for all i care,
... etc.
short-side of this idea is,
your friend can easily switch windows when you make a leave.
And if your friend did see it and call 911 for you,
you could ended up like the sheep boy who keep yelling:
"here comes the wolfs"
but, at least this is a new way of driving friends away,
if you want that is.
i seen the first article at this site a long time ago,
http://mypaper.pchome.com.tw/news/skindoctor/
yesterday i read through the rest of the articles and it really got me thinking.
my first reaction is that i pity this doctor,
for he has to face a government agency where the people work there don't know ****.
then i thought i should be fair.
then i thought my dad is a doc,
i should be on doc's side,
given that my dad can confirm all these things.
then i thought bush is a dumbass,
so high chance of people at government really don't know squat.
so now i'm more toward doc's side.
if i decided to stay here,
why bother worry about taiwan?
given that my dad can retire anytime he wants.
perhaps deep down i do care about taiwan's "normal" people and the land.
but with a government with its stupid politics,
i don't see a bright future.
i resent people in taiwan who simply got brainwashed by the stupid values set up by the media and the politics.
their ignorance really amazed me, and it really kills any hope i have left for that land.
i can't think of a way to save it,
thus i retrieve myself to hiding at a save place in my second home.
i wonder how many people feel the same way,
well, taiwan is over crowded anyways,
i shouldn't add another body weight to make the island sink faster.
An interesting topic that can be broken down into serveral feilds.
And all those ended with, "do you beleive"?
as the famous peter pan, and brian mcnight
"if you beleive, you can fly~"
Let's begin with a simple compliment of "you are smart."
couple issues can be derived.
1. Do you trust the person who is giving the compliment?
If you don't trust the person who is giving the compliment,
why bother listening?
the compliment should be thrown away, it's bull-crap.
However good it might make you feel deep inside.
(嘻嘻嘻!嘿嘿嘿!哈哈哈!)
Now given you trust the person,
the person probably has a good relationship with you
(friends, family, siblings),
or he/she is someone you really respect
(a role-model in certain aspect[s]).
2. Will the person you trust ultimately betray you?
ie. stupid TV role model, evil happy-haha-face friend.
this rotate back to issue 1 and come back to the real issue 2.
Is the person you trust being simply "polite"?
Given the person you trust care about you,
they might just be saying "nice" lie to you.
In order to decide this, you need psycology and statistic.
first of all, have to go through the whole charactor analysis thing.
is the person a straight forward guy?
or the type that package everything that is ever commented?
then, need to taken into the fact taht sometimes people go against their original personality and go bullistic and so on.
Given that this step is passed and you are fairly certain that the compliment is true and sincere, then comes the next step.
3. does it match your own beleive?
whether you are an egomaniac or a very insecure person,
there's always a chance a compliment go against your beleive.
Given that they don't match completely,
the only logical thing is to either reject the compliment secretly inside your mind,
or change your beleive over yourself.
Now in order to decide between the two,
we need to decide another issue.
4. How sure are you on your own beleive, when you know your own personality might play a bias over your own beleive on yourself?
this might sound complicated.
Given you are a very "logical" person and well educated to doubt everything for nothing is what they seem.
you'll take into your own personal bias over your point of view on yourself.
hence, if you are an egomaniac you need to tune down a little,
while if you are too insecure, you need to tune up a bit.
Now, given all that is accomplished, and you decided to beleive the compliment perfectly match your personality.
On the process of varifying each of the tiny predicate you used.
you face the fact that: how do you know your own personality in the first place?
Isn't that an comment people placed on you?
how do you prove that comment is valid then?
If it is not a comment people placed on you,
and it is a goal that yourself pursued,
how do you justify that you already reach the goal and can clearly said you have that particular kind of personality?
Through the values of society?
Aren't the values of the society simply tonz of personal comments from people?
Hence, on the proofing validity of other people's comment(which includes the subset of compliment),
you are back to the same issue.
and therefore, we reach yet another dilemma.
In the end, we simply make assumption, and then..
"Beleive"~ (and soar through the sky)
ps. why would people write this type of pointless bs?
hmmmm...why would people read them?
people read them cauz people write them,
people write them cauz people read them,
hence the endless spiral of bs.