These words all have similar meanings.
(Maybe not irony;however, irony is the ultimate result once the decision is made)
These "things" are all around us.
They surround us with choices we need the bare through and face the consequences.
And, they surround me.
From the tinest insignificant things such as the tidiness of the house to meaningful things like friendship,
there's no escape from their grasp.
Like my house,
personally I would prefer it to be clean and squeeky
(maybe not so much of the squeeky part than the clean part).
Who doesn't like to live in a clean place,
where one is able to maneuver self through the house without constantly bumping into items that somehow got forgotten and deny their existance by one's mind.
However, my laziness and lack of time prohibit me from cleaning the house.
In the end, my torlerence of a messy house improves everytime the house get messy.
And the sad part is,
my house is still not clean.
Things like these, build up people's torlerences.
They enhance the capability to adapt.
It used to be those who can't adapt, die.
Now it is those who can't adapt, run out of the place screaming.
Due to our technology, most those who can't adapt now get to live.
These survivors then compete with those who save them for resources.
In the end, the savior has to put more effort to compete with the survivor.
(Prove: effort to compete with the dead = 0 < effort to compete with the living )
Another dilemma with a sence of irony, a doctor should let the patience die and commit murder of the same race mentally or save the patience so get competed in the society?
The infamouse soap opera one,
when a friend like you,
and you have no feeling for him/her,
yet still want to be friend with him/her,
and you want him/her to give up on you so him/her can find his/her happiness somewhere else,
so you get to bless him/her and fulfill your duty as a friend who cares.
This solution of course provides the most confort for you,
but it kills the feeling and pains your friend.
or maybe you should accept it, so it please your friend and pains you.
as selfish as people should be, first solution is clearly the winning choice.
Another paradox arised, how to break the news without hurting the friendship?
While thinking about the solution for this paradox, one starts to thing,
is this friendship really worth the trouble of putting so much effort into thought?
without a value label on the friendship,
or by giving up the friendship, the initial problem wouldn't even exist.
is the friendship really worth throwing away?
why waste a perfectly good friendship?
now we are back at dilemma one.
and knowing that the thought on solving the dilemma is going to be going around in circle,
we can now call this whole thing a dilemma overload,
or a dilemma function that will keep spitting out dilemma no matter what test solution you try to feed it.
Like an endless dilemma producing machine.
And the sad part of all these is,
it's just a tiny friendship of two insignificant people on this huge planet.
By writing this whole thing out slower than my mind work,
I now face a problem of forgotten ideas,
should i try really hard and squeeze the idea out from memory,
or should i label this with a roman numerial "I" and continue on later when the idea hits me again?
base on my laziness, i choose the later.
but to prevent the idea never hit me,
i'm not gonna place the "I" till it does.
PS. omg, never intend to make this into an essay..
pissed me off.. reading this is gonna be so boring later on..
Given that this is still my ground,
i guess i can unintentionally diss people in whatever way i want.
(for people who got dissed... well.. tough luck)
I wonder how many people has the patience to finish the entire story.
(I have gone into a very bad habbit of not typing chinese,
seems like my chinese is going to get worse and worse if i keep this up.)
To be honest,
this year's IT department is truly weird,
It started out with the fact that i didn't know winnie very well,
and was quite familiar with scott.
During the summer,
with scott's departure to taiwan,
I must admit, that from my memory,
my first meeting with winnie was quite awkward.
Given that it's not a complete desastor,
i dare say that it went quite well.
though out the summer i didn't do too much,
thanks to some game;
however, thanks to winnie's presence,
IT was not completely abandon.
When the school started with scott's return,
things are fair, but not great.
Scott somehow left me this impression that he is to be unbeleivablely busy this year.
Or perhaps it was me that is truly going to be unbeleivablely busy.
Eventually i caught on to what's going on once again,
and all went fair,
though i now run short of time to do anything big in scale,
for example, reinstall the bloody php forum.
As more and more task was "demanded" to be done,
we carried through,
I admire winnie for her capability to handle the pressure yet still produce amazing results.
Up to this point, I think i had a good team going.
I'm really satisfied with the teammates i have.
Desipte scott hasn't catch up yet,
from past experience, i know he eventually will help out,
and eventually he did.
As bad as this can possiblely sound,
i really has no intention of blaming,
given i was a bigger procroscanater than he is.
In October, the infamous internal ice-breaker went on.
On this very day, every departments recruit their future slaves.
Some slaves are shared among departments for most of the departments just want the head counts to be high.
I have zero intention to recruit a massive army,
personally, i rather train 3 deadly assasin,
that can one day take over the world,
than bunch of people that don't know half of it,
and only intends to persue fame, rather than true power.
Sadly, from the look of it, people seem to be attracted more by the fame.
A lot of people seem to join because they know me or winnie.
i understand that,
for i too was once attracted by the bond of friendship.
With this mixed group,
I now face the problem of better phrasing,
"If you not going to do shit, then get out of my sight now".
For i seek the truly dedicated and truly skilled.
To be honest,
I think over 75% of the current IT assitant are unsuitable for this department.
How do i devise a scheme to rapidly rid myself of the unpassioned?
better yet, as a leader should, how do i design a way that the unassionate become passionate, and the unskilled, can work together and reduce the load of the rest.
Given a loner such as I,
how do i turn the unloved strangers to faithful servents of the greater good through a regular meeting?
For I cannot think now, future projects and tests now haunt me.
(this is a weird story writing style.. i think i watch too much TV @@)