Came down to a fever suddenly..
how nice...
I almost forgot how it felt
skin on fire, yet core so cold
no energy at all through out my body
light headed with a minor headache
no appertite.. might due to that gay soup
wanna give up yet worry about responsibilities
(i hate being a grown up)
no wonder the suicide rate is this high,
dying is a lot easier than holding up
I need rest but can't quite sleep
now can only hope that as time pass i'll cure myself unconciously
Still alive... I think.
Haven't really pay attentions to the finer things in life; thus the emptiness for the pass couple months.
now that i do, (for now, since the school just started)
I like to start keeping a journal if possible.
However, doesn't really feel like sharing that.
Finding it harder and harder to trust people,
and to tell/guess what they are thinking.
ie. being the wonderful little parasite that live within other people's mind.
Perhaps I got lazier and my instinct got crappier.
Or perhaps since i hardly give a damn about what other people do,
I hardly think people should waste their time on mine, at all.
Or it could be that i had gradually Lose trust over people,so i don't share, then lose more trust, then don't share more.
It's a wonderful vicious cycle.
At any case people can stop seeing me whining all over the place and stop worry about me rather than some bigger issues of their lives, and i guess that's less attitude from me toward anyone.
Anyways, I'll still post something here from time to time. ( likely songs i like to hear over and over again. )
Btw, phoebe, if u see this, i saw ur friend/past roommate amy earlier near DMP, and she wants to borrow my 320 textbook. Thing is I have no idea which book is that, or do I even have that. Since you know her better, please ask her the book name for my laziness. ( though i honestly don't think you would check this place through out september.... maybe not even october... Actually after this place is abandon for so long, its a miracle if anybody check before December )