Still alive... I think.
Haven't really pay attentions to the finer things in life; thus the emptiness for the pass couple months.
now that i do, (for now, since the school just started)
I like to start keeping a journal if possible.
However, doesn't really feel like sharing that.
Finding it harder and harder to trust people,
and to tell/guess what they are thinking.
ie. being the wonderful little parasite that live within other people's mind.
Perhaps I got lazier and my instinct got crappier.
Or perhaps since i hardly give a damn about what other people do,
I hardly think people should waste their time on mine, at all.
Or it could be that i had gradually Lose trust over people,so i don't share, then lose more trust, then don't share more.
It's a wonderful vicious cycle.
At any case people can stop seeing me whining all over the place and stop worry about me rather than some bigger issues of their lives, and i guess that's less attitude from me toward anyone.
Anyways, I'll still post something here from time to time. ( likely songs i like to hear over and over again. )
Btw, phoebe, if u see this, i saw ur friend/past roommate amy earlier near DMP, and she wants to borrow my 320 textbook. Thing is I have no idea which book is that, or do I even have that. Since you know her better, please ask her the book name for my laziness. ( though i honestly don't think you would check this place through out september.... maybe not even october... Actually after this place is abandon for so long, its a miracle if anybody check before December )
由 touchfish 發表於 September 6, 2005 11:59 PMBut holy sh*t I really did check, just 14 hours after you posted. Ok I'll ask her for you... if I ever see her, cuz amy is always hard to find!
It was good to finally see you again for a while in class today.
Journals are good for privacy, friends are good for company. Keep that one in mind lah! :)
Posted by: KuKi 發表於 September 7, 2005 01:53 PMThe 320 text is Intro to Algorithms by Cormen... I think the cover is blue...
> its a miracle if anybody check before December
Hoho, see, miracle does happen - wanna install an RSS reader?? ;)
Trust - that's a word I once thought I knew the meaning of. But being unsure about what it means doesn't prevent me from trusting ppl and have faith.
And if friends are willing to spend some time for you they wouldn't think it's a waste of time...
Hmm I am not sure if I know what i am talking about... but yeah...
Posted by: cuddlie 發表於 September 8, 2005 12:30 PM[Kuki]
First of all.. congradulation on the timing on checking~ (despite i now know that i can count on people slacking for not installing RSS tracking-new-post feature, but your luckiness broke my prediction)
To be honest.. I have no idea what i wrote on wednesday when you told me you donno wheather u should talk to me on that day after the day i wrote this.. all i remember was the ps part@@..
I was totally confused when u told me i wrote something that indicating i'm sad @@ <--(don't remember!!)
Honestly.. up till now i still don't get where the sad part is.. which part are u talking about?
I had found out and told Amy that i don't have the book. (Don't ask me why i had seen her every day since school start around DMP area.. I donno) She'll settle with my patrice notes. (actually.. now that i thik of it .. don't you ahve patrice's notes too?)
[cuddlie]
I know about RSS and it's new-post notice functionality.. I was excluding people who use that.. and i was assuming phoebe didn't bother to use RSS.. which she didn't~~ (nice to know i can still count on ppl slacking off~)
Thanx for telling me the detail on what the text book look like.
We don't have too much control over trust, no need to over think it. We can always try to trust, but in the end it's still one of those either you do or you don't thing
maybe i'm over applying the concept of 己所不欲,勿施於人~
i'm pretty sure you know what you are talking about
ROFL :) I think you still trust lah. Aiya, I don't have to explain why this post seems sad bah?? And thanks for putting up with that whole talk. Basically I really never want to do that again with you, please. And although you may have no clue why it's a pain for me to force things on you, I'm very very happy that you decided to give things a try. Cheers man!
Posted by: KuKi 發表於 September 10, 2005 04:56 PMI want to say that I thought about you quite a bit lately. (as corny as it may sound... :-p)
I guess... in retrospect, I wish I could have been there for you a bit more...
Hope somehow you do still have the capacity to trust, share and open up to some extent...
And finally, hope we'll be able to catch up soon~
[kuki]
can't believe i didn't reply your age old post@@
I must warn you,
i'm still under the "persuation" from myself that this is just for now,
that i might quit anytime
and once again, where the heck is the sad part!?
lol, doesn't even matter now.
[thpme]
very corny indeed :)
sadly i didn't keep the journal longer than 3 days,
guess either i'm about to burst or i somehow did subconciously give out hints on what's on my mind.
catching up isn't that hard now, is it?
Posted by: touchfish 發表於 October 19, 2005 12:38 AM