It’s been quite a roller coaster ride for me the past few days.
Must’ve been crazy to have believed that my decision to transform into a library geek would be well worth it…. well, it’s worth it for me, but hey, failure prevails when my target goal hasn’t and won’t be met. Originally, my intentions were to kill two birds with one stone by saving myself some embarrassment and prove a point. Well, my stone must not be large enough, cuz how do I go about proving that something is red to someone who sees only black and white in this world? It’s pointless.
What HAS happened? Besides much less of clubs, much less procrastination, much less of a social life, much more computer science, much more library dates, and much more workout, it’s all been the same. Secured a job, cried embarrassing tears, mom’s here, gained a true friend, and lost interest in a filling, eventful life. Once again, I’m stuck in a whirlpool of emotions that are pretty hard to handle.
Remember summer 2004? I can never forget that – nothing really mattered except friendship and spending time together. Didn’t do anything extravagant, wasn’t that crazy (ok 48 hours with no sleep was pretty bad actually)…. But damn…. That was one amazing time.
Last week was equally awesome for me. Danced. Visited my old residence. Studied hard, spent quality time with those I care about, no arguments, no worries, lots of laughter, even found out some entertaining and happy news. Peaceful and quiet = joy!
What does it take to keep these moments?
If I had the choice, I’d like to go up into the mountains, or the woods, or some deserted beach with loved ones and become hermits forevermore. And no internet, please.
It’s been quite a roller coaster ride for me the past few days.
