It’s been quite a roller coaster ride for me the past few days.
Must’ve been crazy to have believed that my decision to transform into a library geek would be well worth it…. well, it’s worth it for me, but hey, failure prevails when my target goal hasn’t and won’t be met. Originally, my intentions were to kill two birds with one stone by saving myself some embarrassment and prove a point. Well, my stone must not be large enough, cuz how do I go about proving that something is red to someone who sees only black and white in this world? It’s pointless.
What HAS happened? Besides much less of clubs, much less procrastination, much less of a social life, much more computer science, much more library dates, and much more workout, it’s all been the same. Secured a job, cried embarrassing tears, mom’s here, gained a true friend, and lost interest in a filling, eventful life. Once again, I’m stuck in a whirlpool of emotions that are pretty hard to handle.
Remember summer 2004? I can never forget that – nothing really mattered except friendship and spending time together. Didn’t do anything extravagant, wasn’t that crazy (ok 48 hours with no sleep was pretty bad actually)…. But damn…. That was one amazing time.
Last week was equally awesome for me. Danced. Visited my old residence. Studied hard, spent quality time with those I care about, no arguments, no worries, lots of laughter, even found out some entertaining and happy news. Peaceful and quiet = joy!
What does it take to keep these moments?
If I had the choice, I’d like to go up into the mountains, or the woods, or some deserted beach with loved ones and become hermits forevermore. And no internet, please.
It’s been quite a roller coaster ride for me the past few days.
Posted by kuki at October 6, 2004 09:44 PMIt's so nice to find your own space and that little slice of peace in your life.
Simplicity really is a blessing at times of turmoil. It is scary to think that we spend more than half of our lives on the internet, isn't it? We DO go on without internet tho....fortunately. Hopefully, I will be able to share some quality time with the ppl I care most about....and stay WORRY-FREE.
You know what, I totally know what you mean girl...
Sometimes I have this urge to run far far away as well... Yet, in this world, we're just not supposed to do things that way...cuz ppl will be worried, and thus we'll be creating even more problems...
And it's hard, finding the satisfication for yourself, and at the same time satisfying others... It's always almost impossible...
Two different minds just don't speak the same languange on some levels... that's why communication is so important...
But what if that doesn't work?... not everyone wants to listen nor can they accept...
Frustration results...
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It's our life, it's our happiness... it's our choice...
yet...is it really always our choice?!
I don't even know the answer to that either...
I guess there's no real solution... but maybe in time, things will be different...
As we grow older, we'll become more and more independent... I'm sure "eventually"... we'll gain ours...
Hang in there... and try to stay focused and happy...
Although I know what I wrote doesn't make much sense...but I know you'll understand:)
Take care Girl~... things will get better oh ^^
Posted by: RuRu at March 7, 2005 02:15 AMHey girl~ I think I've said pretty much all I know what to say on MSN. Hmm, will it cheer you up if I show some support for TT and sign up for the tourney? ^^ But you'll have to practice with me!
I'd like to go up into the mounains, or the woods, or some deserted beach with loved ones too. But not sure about the no internet part. :P
我想前一陣子的低潮妳也是知道的
有很多人陪著我聊天 小喝一杯 拉著我出去玩
有趣的是 不管是做什麼
妳總是很自然地成為聊天時大家關心的話題
我不敢保證友情這種東西不會改變
但是我相信即使很多年以後 我們都分散在不同的地方
妳仍然會是我們都非常非常想念的朋友 :)
Let's have tea next week and talk about some geeky CS project for the summer?
Take care~
Posted by: cuddlie at March 8, 2005 08:14 PM
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